I wonder what it’s like after forever..

I wasn’t looking for it neither wished for it, but I’m so glad that God paved a way for us to meet. At the right time.

It was a sunny morning, I was walking at the busy streets of Makati City going to Convergys at RCBC Plaza when I received a call from Intel Technology Philippines telling me my schedule for interview. I was so happy then, because I’m really used in working at a semiconductor company.

Oh well, I signed a contract-got hired on March 28, 2005 as a Manufacturing Specialist.

My first day at work had not been so fun because I was sick. I habitually sneeze even inside the air-conditioned shuttle bus. Eeew! But I got no choice.

Third day of work. Right after the orientation, I rode on the shuttle bus but I never wore my seatbelt since day one. But that time, our driver was kinda serious that he wanted me to wear my seatbelt. Oh God. I had a hard time putting it on. So there was this one guy, he sat right next to me and helped me put on my seat belt. The man I started naming as “superman” since the first day of work. He was also hired at the same date as mine. He evidently liked superman upon wearing superman shirts since the first day. I thought he was a snob because of his strong features. He has a deep toned skin, curly hair, expressive big eyes and a yummy nose. I just had a chance to study every part of his face when he sat beside me. Then we formally met and exchanged numbers. I knew it wasn’t right for me to entertain guys because that time I was still committed to another guy, but I considered myself unattached already because even if we don’t have a formal break-up, we didn’t even talked for months until then. But still, I’m being unfair. I know.

Time flies so fast that I developed a feeling for Mr. Superman. He’s so charming and funny. We got along well. Im so comfortable with him. No man has ever made me laugh like he does. He used to call me “panget”. It was his endearment. Laugh-out-loud. He said I amused him. Because I’m the only girl he knew that was not shy of sneezing out loud as if I own the world and there’s no crowd. I always make him laugh unintentionally. I dunno how but he always wanted to see me laugh. The first words that he texted was “basketball lang ako ha, love you!” The nerve! But deep-inside, kilig!

Then, the next thing I knew, we we’re exclusively dating.

It seemed that everything had fallen into place until the day he never talked to me. Then I saw him flirting with another girl. I don’t know exactly what I felt but there’s this burning feeling inside my core that I would want to wreck into pieces. I can’t bear the pain. That’s when I realized, I’m in love with him and its killing me.

I tried to talk to him. I wanna clarify things. At first he was hesitant but I kept on insisting to tell me the truth why all of the sudden he ignored me. That’s when I knew he found out about my previous relationship. He thought “kame pa”. I explained everything to him but I knew he didn’t believe me at all. Weeks have passed and all about “us” was vanished.

I was badly hurt but I came to realize that it was really my fault of not telling him the truth. But God knows how much I love him. I’m drowned.

Then one time he approached me. We talked. And he said he’s miserable without me at his side. That he’s ready to be with me again and he’s willing to accept the fact that I have a boyfriend aside from him. (To think that we don’t have a relationship yet.) I kept on telling him that I’m no longer committed with another man. It took months before he believed me. I really thought he would never come back to me after what had happened. Then we formally started our relationship.

Again, I thought everything was okey. Until his ex-gf started to ruin our relationship…

I felt like it was my karma.

The FIRST ATTACK.

I was the one who read her personal messages in his yahoo account telling him how much she loved my boyfriend. That she wanted him back and she’s willing to give herself to him just for them to be together again. My first reaction was “Do u have to be this desperate just to have what you’ve already lost?” I pity her, really. But that pity slowly turned into hatred when I got the chance to talk to her thru text. She has this courage and very eager to have my man back in her arms. To think that they had been separated for years! She always calls him but my boyfriend always rejects her call. We talked seriously that I wanted to be fair. But my Bf really doesn’t love this girl anymore. I believed him. But this girl was so persistent. She will never stop until she got what she wants. My boyfriend. Bitch.

But my boyfriend talked to her and told her that they were through. It was my happiest day.

But then this girl used her 100% power just to win him back. But luckily, she never won.

It’s as if my boyfriend cost as much as Grammy’s.

But I know he’s more than that.

Reconcillation.

There were many girls who wanted to be with him. I don’t know what his secret. Maybe his Hanes.

He entertained some of them before. But it’s his will when he stopped. I didn’t do anything to change him. It was his choice. I asked him why did he quit- smoking, frequently drinking and flirting with girls.

He didn’t even have to answer, I know why. But I still wanna hear it straight from him.

He love me so much, that’s he will be crazy without me. I never expected to hear it from him much more when he actually changed his lifestyle, from a bachelor to tamed lover.

I didn’t even have a magic spell, just pure love.

I thought our relationship will be miserable forever. That it came to a point that we have to separate our ways to fix things before we get more serious with our relationship.

I didn’t expect things to be this way. I found the one. The very good one.

Even though we started our relationship with big problems, there has always been a solution to everything just as long as there is great love that binds you. I was just so lucky. And I never regretted that I gave him a chance to change.

And now, he’s at his best. He love me so much, I can feel it more than I can say it.

Im just so thankful that God gave me a very good man to grow old with.

Now I know, no one can ruin the very strong bond that we share.

Have you ever had this feeling that just by looking at him, without saying anything, you know that your day is complete?

Thank you so much honey for everything. For accepting me for who I am. Even if you sees the real me, you still want me to be your wife.

My family loves him so much. He’s such a good man. Very responsible.

He always helps my family whenever there are problems. He loved them.

That’s the most important thing to me. Loving my entire family.

And I also love his family. They are great.

It took a year before our relationship goes back to normal.

But it’s all worth it.

Our past ends here though its always great to look back on how we get through and how we found each other.

There has always been a petty quarrels that I’m sure every relationship has gotten into.

But now were very happy that we grow together. We started building our dreams. I think our problems really helped us become more mature in approaching things. Were very happy every single day. We know each other very well, our weaknesses, our mood swings, our strengths.. And were trying our best to understand and respect each other.

Our 4 years of being together led us to a new horizon. Planning for the future.

Funny we had alist of entourage, our sponsors, number of guests, menu, motif, flowers, target wedding date. But were still preparing for our financial stability.

A 3-hour wedding ceremony is not really what matters. But what life is waiting after that day. Would things will still be the same. It’s important to be emotionally, spiritually, mentally, physically and financially ready before you take the next step.

You should be prepared for the pros and cons. There are many people out there that celebrated the Wedding-of-the-year ceremony and yet they are not happy, in the end-Annulled.

That’s the least thing that we would want to happen.

He inspires me in every way. That made me put on my fingers at my computer table and started creating this blog about him. About love. About life.

I know for a fact that in a way, I can’t fulfill his humane nature yet but he can wait until forever. Right Honey?

God, I know I had not been a good daughter to you sometimes, but you know that Im really trying my best to be the best for you. You’re the least person I would want to be upset with me. After all my shortcomings, you still give me the best man that can help me find myself. Thank you for giving me a blessing- a wonderful family and responsible husband-to-be.

Thank you so much for everything.

Honey, sorry for being so bratinela. Thanks for pampering me. Thanks for making my life colorful and helping me in every way you could.

Now, I cant ask for anything more.

I have found my dwelling place-Right beside you, clinched into your arms.

I love you.Too.

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